Having said that I could have done so many other things on weekday nights but I chose to spend it with you cause I want to as well. Yet you cannot see that. Yet you take it for a given and I feel that if I do other things I’m not spending time with you.
Can you even see. I did enough thinking I had you. Still I did plan awesome things for you. Yet. Yet I never really had you, that’s what I found out that January. Do you even know how it feels? That you have done everything you can to try and win the person but you never really did in the end. And still you demand more of me. Like I have not given enough. Look and see and tell me if I have given enough.
And you think I will not run away? I run away because I am so uncertain. That even in my love I am uncertain if I have the one I love. Huh you will never understand the meaning of loving someone without being loved back. Never because you are privileged. Because you have a line of suitors waiting, you will never know.
I tried to overcome. Well I don’t even know if you want to step in my shoes and understand the steps and paths I took